Such a hot mess

What is you ask? Well everything. Especially this post. Really there is no excuse for the disorganization but what can you do? So I have a variety of subjects to post about today. Aren’t you excited? Getting chills yet?

Topic 1: Work

I am not a morning person. AT ALL. I’m the type of person that needs a good 1/2 hour after waking up to stop being grumpy. I love to sleep and I am not pleasant if I do not get enough of it. So OF COURSE I was scheduled to be at work at 6:45am this whole week. Part of the greatest part of my job is the schedule. Monday – Friday, 10:30-7:oo. Perfect. But this week the kids are out of school so we needed to be open early so parents have a place to take them if they have to work. I don’t know how I got volunteered for the lovely task of opening, but I did.

So everyday this week I have dutifully gotten my pathetic arse out of bed at 5:30am. I have also resisted the urge to chuck my phone across the room when the alarm went off, but mostly because I remember how pretty my white iPhone is and I’d miss it.

I am SOOOOOO tired. Monday and Tuesday were okay, Wednesday a little harder, but today was torture. I just wanted to stay in my nice warm bed. My eyes were crying out “Nooooo light! We want darkkkknesss!”. And even as I type this I am trying not to fall asleep and drool all over myself.

Topic 2: Doctor Check-up

I had another doctor check up on Tuesday. It was 1 1/2 WPR (weeks past rupture). That’s right, I’m making up my own acronyms now. Jealous? Anyways the doctor was running late which I just LOVED because what infertile doesn’t want to sit in a waiting room of pregnant woman and newborns. I think it’s a BLAST!

I finally got called in and got all settled with my lovely pink paper towel covering my lady bits. While I waited I twiddle my thumbs and I noticed this:

I don’t know who they think they are kidding but calling them “Probe Covers” does not change the fact that these are condoms for the Vag Cam.

The results…were not what I wanted. I am feeling 1000x better so I figured the cysts had shrunken down a ton. Well my doctor explained that the reason that I am feeling so much is because all the fluid from the ruptured cyst has been re-absorbed and is gone. So my abdomen is back to normal. However the cysts are still huge. They are 5cm, 4.5cm, and 4cm. My doctor said in all reality it will be 2-3 months before we can begin fertility treatments again.

Merry Christmas to ME! You get NO BABY!

I guess in retrospect I handled the news pretty well. No tears this time. J just said that I have no more tears left to cry which very well may be true. Instead I went and got myself dinner and blasted Britney Spears in my car. Hey, don’t judge me! It’s very hard to be sad when listening to Britney!

Shame on me


To need release




I-I-I wanna go-o-o all the way-ay-ay

Taking out my freak tonight

I-I-I wanna show-ow-ow

All the dirt-irt-irt I got running through my mind


Okay, now you can judge me.

Next scan is scheduled for the end of February so until then you all get to listen to me complain about the cyst that ruined my life. Maybe I’ll name him George…

Topic 3: We can’t catch a break.

We are preparing to head out tonight to go visit my family for the holidays. Things were all planned and going well. As an added bonus I can actually move my torso! Rock on! But of course things could not go as planned, J came home last night from work with a sever sore throat. He is having a really hard time swallowing and is in so much pain that he can’t turn his head.

I called my Aunt (who is an ER nurse and who we also happen to be driving to see tonight) and she gave us some tips. ibuprofen, hot Tang, Dayquil, and 1 tablespoon of Apple Cider Vinegar taken like a shot to kill anything viral. J LOVES that part. Burns on the way down and feels sooo right.

He stayed home from work today and I am just hoping that he feels well enough to make the drive. Because I do not do well driving long stretches when I am sleepy and I am sooooooo tired! (see Topic 1). I really don’t feel like DYING tonight, so hopefully he can lead us safely onward.

Praying it’s not strep, please don’t be strep! Plus it’s just so sad to see him sick. Poor boo.

Topic 4: ICLW!

ICLW started again yesterday so welcome to all those who are visiting! If you would like a rundown of what we have done please click on “Infertility History” at the top of the page. If you want a quick version here you go:

TTC #1 for 1 year with PCOS. Anovulatory. 4 failed rounds of Clomid, the last one resulting in a HUUUUUGE ruptured cyst (George) that has now put us on a forced break for 2-3 months. Depression, angst, and craziness has been a daily part of my life. And it’s FUN!

Welcome and happy ICLW!



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13 responses to “Such a hot mess

  1. It kinda creeps me out that all the “sheathes” are just hanging out like that. Is that even sanitary? Can’t germs and shit land on those and then they get shoved in your lady parts, bringing all those germs with them? Hmm.

    Anyway. George sucks balls. The only George I’ve ever liked is George Takei.

  2. I picture George to look something like George Costanza (Seinfeld): he’s unattractive, annoying, and won’t take the obvious hint that he’s overstayed his welcome. Stupid George.

  3. GIrl I soooo understand your frustration with being benched. I was out for two months after my OHSS and have had numerous cycles post-poned due to my cysty ovaries of doom. My only advice is to fill the next two months with all the things you can’t do while on a cycle. Enjoy wine. Run/exercise. Adventure. Have random non-baby-making sex. Also, Tami hit the nail on the head! I ❤ Seinfeld!

  4. I’m in awe. A 5:30 am wake-up call 5 days in a row?!?!? I would have slept through the alarm by now. And I would have giggled uncontrollably through the whole doctor’s visit once I saw the “Sheathes.” (And then the next visit, I would bring in a Sharpie).

  5. K

    I had a ruptured cyst once…not cool. But, I too LOVE Brit-Brit. I hope you can catch up on your sleep!

  6. nobabiesyet

    That all just sucks for you! Stupid George causing so many problems. Hang in there and hopefully one of those things will get easier this week.

  7. he im here from iclw, just find it so funny tht u actually named ur cyst, u remind of my sister alot shes always a hot mess!

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